Happy Kara's 4th debut anniversary

Happy Kara's 4th debut anniversary.

Kara hwaiting!! ;)

Love you all, Kamilias! ♥ ♥ ♥

My face is behind the masks I'm wearing

Had a drink with some old buddies from high school on Friday's night
and my mind kept recalling a thing one of my friend told me.

The persistent recall made me think deep about it.
Abbie, you're right.
Perhaps people like me don't deserve any love from the others.
I wear masks all my life except when I'm alone by myself.
I rarely allow others to glimpse at the face behind my masks.
At most of the time, wearing my masks is my top priority.
Emotions always come second.
Yea... who on earth will like someone who has another face beneath their so-called "face"?
Would you like your close friend to have a devilish personality under their smiles?
Or how would you like it to find out that the smile of your friend lies another he or she?
Nevertheless, wearing masks has somehow become a reflex action to me.
Unlike others, I need that in life
I need it to protect the "me" behind those layers and layers of mask.

Yes, I'm doing that for myself and I'm a selfish person.
Sigh...
I'm fake, guys.
Don't get so near to me or you'll seriously get hurt.
Approach at your own risk, folks.
Listen carefully, I'm giving warnings here.

Absurd Theory of Yours

I don't even have the freedom to go anywhere or do anything I want?
Damn! Moreover, it's for my university matter.
Don't give me that frustrated and pissed-off look if you don't know anything!
Is it fair for me to watch over the house,
waste my time for more important things that I should do
since my siblings are at home looking after the house?
You suppose me to stay at home all day just
because you want there to be a car for emergencies?
Dad's coming back soon, "dear".
Should all my weekends dedicate to your watching-over-the-house theory?
A stoned mind is what people like you have in common.
Don't screw my plan, especially when it's related to my studies that
you both want me to excel More Than Anyone Else In This World.
And for God sake, please don't take me for granted
and always compare me with my brother.


I don't like you raising your voice to me casually to something that you think is of insignificant to you!

I saw my shade in Terrorblade's

When I logged into my Facebook account this evening,
I saw some of my friends shared a video link.
It didn't attract me that much until I saw the title, "Dota - TerrorBlade's Revenge".
It wasn't because I was sensitive to the word, "revenge", rather it was because I've heard and seen some video clips on youtube years ago about this Dota Chronicle.
It is one of the most famous chronicle of Dota and it was a big hit to Warcrafts players.
I don't know whether it is still that popular now but it was.
Also, seeing one of the "dude" indicated at the comment section that it was a movie, it urged me to play video.
I thought it was a trailer but it turned out to be the real movie and I only realized that when I looked at the duration of the video, 1hour and 4minutes.



TerrorBlade's Revenge



So I started watching and...
As the story proceeded, I got very emotional.
I identified myself a lot with the story, especially the main character.
I kept seeing shades of myself from the main character.
I didn't have any gifted talents nor I have an "eye-candy" appearance or a "vibrant warm" soul that makes the others like me in an instant.



Since small, I've been trying very hard to achieve in anything possible but I've succeeded none of them.
I'm a loser and everybody makes fun from humiliating me.
I've been enduring all these humiliations for years and years
and the scorns and cold eyes from the people have formed this immeasurable hatred in every single nerves I have.
There were moments when I thought that my existence was a mistake.


However...
I have converted the hatred into a driving force to work harder and desire success more.
I yearn for success because I want to pay back these people who once turned me into a laughing subject.
Not by killing them but by returning the humiliations they've given me with "interests".


Thinking deeply...
Would this strong desire of mine lead me to the similar ending the main character had in the story?
Will there be a time where I'll be hurting the ones I know.
I have none of the answers...

Enjoy the movie, everyone.
(I'm recommending it because of its epic plot and appropriate soundtracks, not because that I'm a Warcraft player. The story has romance too, so I guess girls will also love it as well.)

Meow `` ` ` `

Meow Meow ~~ ~
Hmm? What do you want, Meow Meow?
xD My cat was curious about the black square box I was holding.

True friends

Sometimes we need a bunch of friends to share the same interest, thought and laughter with to make you feel that it's worthy enough to continue living your life They are this bunch of people who will alleviate your stress, not the bunch of people who only know how to make you as a teasing subject because they think they are so much better than you. I'm glad I have this bunch of friends in life, at least they make my life more colourful and worthy to live on.
Cheers for your true friends out there!
And
Cherish your friends before it's too late. =)

My "Tranny" Friend

One day, I'm gonna' return all these humiliations you've given me in one go
and make sure you wish you were dead in front of me from the unsustainable embarrassment you're having.
Don't worry, I won't punch you nor will I kill you.
Please get wrapped by despair and embarrassment for the rest of your life.
You think you're so good-looking huh? You think you're so good.
I just hope that the time when you fall in life, you don't whine and cry like a bitch
Because I'm so going to enjoy every seconds of that moment.