Can't imagine I actually sat there 3 hours
looking at something I couldn't make sense of
and yet pushing myself so much to reread the nonsense so many times.
First time in 3 years I felt so miserable during an examination.
Felt so pissed off by myself I wished I'd put 300% efforts on the subject
Mood got totally screwed up by the incident... especially after I got out from the hall
The gray sky above further worsened my mood
At this point of the time, I thought I'm really useless.
I never do well in everything I supposed to do well.
I was so down I didn't want to see anyone's face....
Then, I listened to this on youtube by coincidence.
They are able and have been enduring those unbearable hardships for so many years.
What am I compared to them
If I can't stand up this time, I doubt I should be considered a man.
=) bittersweet smile?
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