Jealousy and Mocking

I was raised in a situation where
if you want something, you have to work really hard to get it yourself.
Looking at the people around getting what they wished for with much lesser efforts,
I couldn't restrain the arousal of jealousy spreading out of nowhere.
No matter how overwhelmed am I by jealousy, I had to rope myself down.
Keeping that jealousy somewhere furthest from my face and closest to my heart.
With conscience, my mind survived and remained intact.
Knowing that jealousy would not bring me anywhere but only adequate efforts would.

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Should I say that people around like to take me for granted or do they think it is okay to hurt someone's heart like mine because they think I'll be alright with that and that they're so much better?
I'm tired of the mocking, 19years of living with 8/10 of the time living under those unbearable and disrespectful ridicules.
Neither of them tries to understand.
Immature and ignorant beings,
I hate you all to the bottom of the ocean when you say those things without taking into consideration a person's feeling.