Results Day

Cautiously, I entered my user ID and password into the system to check my results on Thursday.
My breathing stopped seconds before I clicked on the Achievement link.
Pop! My name, the first thing that came to my sight.
Then... A A.....B+.
For a second, I thought I got some Bs and Cs and I was like, God, I'm so screwed.
Then I looked carefully again on the alphabets on the very right side of the table.
There was this B+ but along with the other As.
Yes, the others were As.
My lungs were back right after that.
What a relieved, I sighed, probably still couldn't be absolutely clear of what was happening.
4.0 for the rest and a B+ for a subject I was so sure I could have got an A for it.
I sighed again.
Maybe I was just too greedy or I never did appreciate what was in front of me.
Then for another moment, I thought, it was so tiring to do the best for everything I do.
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I have another 4years to complete my course or another 8 semesters to work my ass out excluding my 6 months internship.
This is just the beginning and I'm already feeling tired.
I'm always doing the best in everything I do.
The ending is somehow rewarding sometimes but the process is really painful.
I have to shape and discipline my mind so stiff to do best for everything I do.
Yes, I hate disciplines.
I used to be such a cheerful person that thinks nothing but only fun and joy.
However, that was when I haven't realized the ugly truth behind the value of money in this pathetic world.
I wonder what kind of person would I become when money is not of a concern to me anymore somewhere in the future.
Perhaps Junior Jiann Nan once more? Probably.

Yup, that's me with grandma'.